apathetic creature!

Tagal ko na naman di nakakapagpost. buti na lang wala masyado nagbabasa nito. hehe

anyways, so much had happen the past few days or weeks(?)... jap and i talked again. dami ko nalaman, unexpected things. things that made me happy. pero after nun, he was again, gone with the wind! whew! its not new actually. pero nakakabaliw! kase i got so confused again. i talked to shar about it and she gave me two choices: stay or move on. hay! ang hirap.. thinking about it made me cry! kase i cant bare the thought of losing him, that's how much i love him. tanga na kung tanga. pero ganun talaga eh. eh ayun, i had to make a decision. a really, really hard decision. and that's, to finally move on. pero maraming beses ko na rin naman ginawa yun. magugoodbye ako tapos magiging ok ulit kami, tapos goodbye na naman, tapos ok ulit. nakakapagod. pero everytime na magiging ok kami,nagiging happy na naman ako. he makes me so happy. pero ironically, he's hurting me :(

hay! stressful! my friends dont even know na im goin back to cebu. it may be for good or maybe hindi. ewan ko. ang hirap! hahay! sobrang pahirap talaga ang sitwasyon ko ngayon. lalo lang ako nagkakasakit. haaay! anyway, ill have to cut this short. kase ang hirap ng nakatayo habang online eh. masakit sa paa. til next time!