apathetic creature!

Tagal ko na naman di nakakapagpost. buti na lang wala masyado nagbabasa nito. hehe

anyways, so much had happen the past few days or weeks(?)... jap and i talked again. dami ko nalaman, unexpected things. things that made me happy. pero after nun, he was again, gone with the wind! whew! its not new actually. pero nakakabaliw! kase i got so confused again. i talked to shar about it and she gave me two choices: stay or move on. hay! ang hirap.. thinking about it made me cry! kase i cant bare the thought of losing him, that's how much i love him. tanga na kung tanga. pero ganun talaga eh. eh ayun, i had to make a decision. a really, really hard decision. and that's, to finally move on. pero maraming beses ko na rin naman ginawa yun. magugoodbye ako tapos magiging ok ulit kami, tapos goodbye na naman, tapos ok ulit. nakakapagod. pero everytime na magiging ok kami,nagiging happy na naman ako. he makes me so happy. pero ironically, he's hurting me :(

hay! stressful! my friends dont even know na im goin back to cebu. it may be for good or maybe hindi. ewan ko. ang hirap! hahay! sobrang pahirap talaga ang sitwasyon ko ngayon. lalo lang ako nagkakasakit. haaay! anyway, ill have to cut this short. kase ang hirap ng nakatayo habang online eh. masakit sa paa. til next time!

last night was a really fun night.


wen out with my artstruck friends. i tagged along with, shar and denise. i never thought we'd become really close to each other. were like, this tight! hehe

we went to glorietta.
then to IO.. that's in Jupiter place in makati.
we sang our hearts out. hehe (that's what we call artstruck bonding!)
dumating si ninj. na matagal ko na di nakikita.
he was with ryan. na kamukha talaga ni jolo revilla! haha
tapos, this guy asked me to go to ponti. i did, but it got me frustrated! (oh shit talaga yun... ni di ko maexplain sa mga kasama ko kung ano talaga ang totoo)
mike got caught pa coz of driving sa one way.
shit shit shit talaga. i was soooo guilty talaga. hay! :(
we went to denise's place tapos nag-inuman sila.
i didnt wanna talk the whole time coz i was so embarrassed na.
anyway, di ko na idedetalye pa. basta yun na. we went home at around 4:30 ata.
i arrived home mga 5am and mike had to accompany me for 30 mins kase di pa bukas ang bahay. hehe we had a very sensible talk. dami ko rin natutunan. hay! basta masaya ang gabing nagkasama-sama kami. sana maulit. coz i really missed them. hehe we never got the chance to bond much last year, this year na lang.

anyway, imma sneak out now. til then!

HAPPY


so...... last friday, suspended ang classes. di natuloy ang artstruck. nung monday naman, suspended ulit. so basically, tuesday became the first day of the week for all of us.

Got up so early today and slept really late last night. Jap and I talked over the phone. it was a fun conversation. it was like what we always had before. i missed him. hehe

anyway, goin back, i woke up really early because 1) my mom called up. 2) i have to attend mass with the officers and it is ash wednesday today so i have to hear mass.

so there.

last night was a very unpredictable night. i promised myself imma sleep really early. but then, i just couldnt. so... jap and i talked. and so what? hehe akala ko, di ako makakapagsalita. pero hindi, we talked like nothing's happened. and its good. kulitan lang, asaran and so on... hay! tapos, habang kausap ko siya, may katext naman akong dalawang loko. haha

si harvey. ang dakilang kaibigan ni kat. ayun, wala lang, lasing. hehe ok di ba? kung ano2x napag-usapan namin, kung ano2x rin mga pinagsasabi niya. hehe

si eric. ang weird! dami niya sinabi na malabo. reminded me of jap, really! di ko na idedetalye kase i kinda got the drift, pero gusto ko pa rin malinaw. so saka nalang pag malinaw na lahat! hehehe

ayun.. kakatapos lang namin mag-mass. kumain kami and then, ngayon, nagnenet.. obvious ba? haha sabi ko nga first day ko as an officer yesterday. hehe ok naman naging first meeting namin. nagawa ko naman ng maayos ang trabaho ko. pray for me naman, na magtuloy2x dba? first time ko maging sec eh. hehe kaasar kaya si sir dex! haha la lang... ilan2x lang nakakainitndi.. oh well...

wala akong magawa eh.. til next time nalang ah!