eve of new year...

one boring day. we had a general cleaning for the new year (at home ofcourse). tapos my mom treated us out for lunch. me and my sis abi and brother rj watched this movie entitled, "material girl/s". it was fun. but too shallow, i mean the story. and was too fast-paced too. twas good for past time.

hay. got nothing more to say. ciao!

whew! Christmas just passed. and twas one kinda boring evening. the mass was too long and it started late already. needless to say, we spent Christmas in church. while father was giving his final blessing, we were already hearing the loud firecrackers outside. we didnt have noche buena at home. my mom didnt bother to cook. haha all of us ate in our tita's place. and i mean, all of us!

after eating, april and i crashed at ian's place. we ate mango float! my favorite! then went to starbucks at around 3:30 in the mornin'. their employees at starbucks were having their christmas party, twas just a small celebration. but i had fun watching them. then, we went home. yun na! haha

boring noh?

dec. 25, we watched a movie. it was like a tradition for us. haha every 25th of december, we would watch a movie. it was mmff's opening. haha we watched mano po 5 instead of shake, rattle and roll. the movie was funny. and id like to watch the other movies too. perhaps in the next few days. :-)

merry christmas everyone! happy new year!

its already the eve of christmas and its not yet midnight. people are already sending christmas greetings like crazy.

we went out last night with my cousins. went to a place called "kasadja". it used to be a chill-out place before. now there's a lotta dancing goin on. we did until the wee hours of the morning. at around 3:30, 2 girls were fighting on the dance floor. haha and outside, 2 men were doing the same thing. what the heck! merry christmas everybody! haha


anyhoo, happy holidays everyone! im still sleepy! :p

just got home, finally. its already 11:30 something in the evening. i attended center for pop's christmas party here in cebu ofcourse (i am, by the way a student of center for pop/or used to be? a student hehe). it was fun. they had games, eating, chika-chika, and ofcourse, exchanging of gifts!

were thinking of going out tonight but were all so tamad to do so. hehe so we'll just stay at home, wait for the time and then hear mass by 4:30.

went to ayala early afternoon. just roamed around, then went to emall. we went gift-hunting. saw a lot of good stuffs for myself! haha its almost christmas!

merry christmas in advance ti all!

Another day has passed. i was alone in the room, slept for hours. whew! im currently downloading "what's forever for" by billy gillman. its a classic, it a beautiful, beautiful song.

anyway, was supposed to hit the mall today but didnt feel like going na. im always stuck at home. thanks to the misa de gallo, im always hit by sleepiness so i just sleep for like, almost the whole day. haha

i discovered something new sa itunes! haha i cn now convert to wav. well not for me. for my cousin since her phone doesnt read mp3's. heheh yay! galing!

im bored. period.

im currently listening to nina's "someday". the song really is for me. to all those foolish guys who made me cry and broke my heart, snap! haha!

someday! someday! rar!

im feeling kinda cranky today i dunno why. it couldnt be lack of sleep. i slept til God knows when! maybe because i got nothing to do. bum bum bum!

i hate these kinds of days! :-/

grabe, kinda slept the whole day. so tired from last night's gimmick. we danced the whole night. twas a fun and hilarious night. some biatch just make me laugh! haha

pump's the same. only, the crowd changed. there were a lotta hoes! eeew! hahaha nevertheless, twas still fun. care ko sa kanila. just wanted to dance! hehehe

I dunno whether to love or hate this song...

BABY IM BACK


Don't look no farther!
Baby im back (yeah)
Im here to cater to you (any thing that you want me to ill do it)
Cause Ill be your lover (ill be your lover)
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do (tell me what I gotta do and ill do it)

[Baby Bash]
Now im back in a flesh
Feelin so blessed, back in your corner suga, suga don't stress
Forget about the rest; let's go inside, im back in your zone
Baby im back in your vibe, now I cant be denied I can lie im on ya
I never ever wanna say sayonara
Somebody told me that the grass was greener
On the other side andale arriba
Never really intended on being a cheater
What I gotta do to be a keeper
These words comin out the speaker, true love is off the meter

[Chorus]

[Baby Bash]
I was gone for a minute but now im home,
Please forgive me for being a rolling stone,
Please forgive me let me polish it up like chrome,
Get off the phone till he swears to leave you alone,
Let me spark your interest, now there's no more dating on the internet,
Cause you already know how I get it wet, how I keep it so saucy and I get respect,
You don't have to look no farther, you dealin with the whole enchilada,
You don't have to look no farther, you hotter then a fire starter

[Chorus]

[Baby Bash]
I was gone for a minute, (oooohhh) [repeat x4]
Now im back let me hit it (oooohhh) [repeat x4]

...................................................


SHUT UP!!!

THIS IS FOR YOU...



IM NOT MISSING YOU

Oh, Oh
I'm not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that it's over
What else could it be _____

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

CHORUS
(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

It's a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

Chorus x 2

No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone (I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because (it's the best day of my life)
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you I'm not missing you (oh baby)
I'm not missing you
I'm so over you
It ain't even a problem

LOSER!

hmmm just a thought. around 2 weeks ago, Louise, my bubuyog barkada lost their home to a huge fire which unfortunately started in their own house. when jowee messaged us the news, i was stuck to my seat and didnt know what to do, i tried calling louise but the line was busy. well, it was expected. a lot of important people would, for sure call him.

anyway, it just came up to me. wasnt really there for him. got too preoccupied with a lot of things. were just lucky we have great friends. (you know who you are). :-)

whatta boring day. and its raining. been listening to "you first believed" over and over again. this song just melts me. haaaay :-)

when will i ever find that person who will "first believe" ? heheh bitterness.

i love and hate the rain (labo!). it keeps me relaxed yet it makes me sad. it reminds me of bad ol' days. hehe i wanted to post random thoughts, but nothing's inside my head.

sentiments....

ABOUT ME... (from my friendster profile hehe)

Random thought.

cheesy, it is!


Everyone knows I am a happy person, that even if I go through losing moments, I still manage to flash my sweetest smile to everyone. I appreciate liitle things. I have a superficial personality but, try to get to know me coz i can be very deep as well.
...for the past 19 years, ive dealt with a lot of people. most of them mistake me with someone i am really not. but that's reality, we cant really please all the people we meet. its a matter of being yourself, and never allowing people to change who you are.
...for the past 19 years, I have been through a lot already. And for the past 19 years, I must say, I have learned so much and i never regret living my life the way i lived. that if id be given a chance to live life all over again, id still want to go through all the happiest, the not-so-happy, and even the most painful melancholies, id want to meet the same people, play with the same friends, have the same family.... cliche as it is, but all these things have molded me to what i am right now. i would never be the "dawn" that i am. I am most happy with how my parents brought me up. they showed me how wonderful and meaningful life can be if i walk through it with a pure and big heart. i am not a perfect person, but deep inside lies a forever faithful servant of God. my faith is what's keeping me strong despite the struggles and the sorrows life has wrought. it isnt easy dealing with life itself. but the experiences are priceless.

this song makes my heart thump! :p

I Miss You Like Crazy by Natalie Cole

I remember the things that we used to do, a kiss in the rain

Til' the sun shined through, I'd try to deny it, but I'm still in love with you

I miss you like crazy, I miss you like crazy, ever since you went away

Every hour of every day, I miss you like crazy, I miss you like crazy

No matter what I say or do, there's just no getting over you

I can see the love shining in your eyes, and it comes as such a sweet surprise

If seeing's believing its worth the wait, so hold me and tell me its not too late

We're so good together, we're starting forever now, And I miss you like crazy

I miss you like crazy, ever since you went away, every hour of every day

I miss you like crazy, I miss you baby, a love like ours will never end

Just touch me and we're there again

Musical interlude

Just one night and we'll have that magic feeling like we used to do

Hold on tight and whatever comes our way we're gonna make it through

If seeing's believing its worth the wait, so hold me and tell me its not too late

We're so good together, we're starting forever now

And I miss you like crazy, I miss you like crazy

No matter what I say or do there's just no getting over you

And I miss you (baby), I miss you (baby), all the tender love you gave me

When a feeling gets this strong, you know the real thing come along

And I miss you, I miss you like crazy baby, only (you're) should be "your" sweet love

Can save me, I miss you like crazy, a love like ours will never end

Just touch me and we're there again,

Miss you like crazy, I miss you like crazy

this song melts me...

"You First Believed"n by Hoku

How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace

So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget

It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed

There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart

It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed

How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star

im here once again infront of the pc. bum na naman ako. hehe :p im excited for christmas. la lang.

anyhoo, when i arrived a lot told me i lost weight. wuhooo! sana totoo at sana magtuluy-tuloy. hehe im gonna have to do the right diet and exercise. naks! aww i miss my friends in manila already. chie, trish, jowee, denise, louise, kat, che, shar, krinel, kambal, zhane, ericka, ge, doug, kai, i cant mention all of them pero namimiss ko na sila! hay! sama mo ang wa3! hehe ge, joj, joan. rar!

im finally in cebu! gawd, missed this place. missed my cousins. my friends. everything! im spending the holidays here and im excited. simbang gabi na this sat! yay! yay!

what happened to me buh? well someone messaged me sa friendster. she's pissed. i dunno y. her user name's "beatriz elizalde" which ofcourse isnt even familiar to me. i dont even recognize her. anyway here's the message.

beatriz elizalde wrote:

"dawn u are such a hypocrite. i hate that. kapal mo tlaga. nku, buti nga things didnt work out with u both. ex ko nga sya pero he deserves better than a lowlyf like u. i cant believe u did what u did. are u happy bah? well i hope u at least feel a slight bit of shame sa ginawa mo."

so the bottom line is, she hates me kase pinatulan ko yung ex niya. who the he'' is her ex anyway? ayun, i replied. i kinda hesitated at first kasi nga di ko siya kilala. but i still did. i told her baka ibang dawn ang ibig niyang sabihin. then she replied:

"dawn hugo dba? from dlsu?"

wtf! i know all my ex's for heaven's sake! none of them knows the girl. but i had one hint. pero i gave him the benefit of the doubt pa rin. so yun na, maia, who happens to be one of my ex's girlfriend helped me in a way. she said he bf doesnt know her. she searched the net and voilah! she found the exact pic in myspace and found out that the girl isnt really beatriz elizalde. sa we drew a conclusion, its either the girl made an account just to message me. an account na hindi kami konektado in a way. or she used another account. but id stick to the first one. i texted one of the guys who got linked to me and told him i kinda think the message involved him. and guess what naman, di siya nagreply. so inisip ko na he might be thinking of the same thing! rar!

gusto ko na manahimik utang na loob!

wish ko lang sumaya kayo sa pasko!

rrrr... GOD LOVES YOU. yun lang!

to the girl:
you do not know me dear. im not a hypocrite nor am i makapal. lalo namang hindi ako "lowlife" or whatever it is you think of me. sayo na siya! buong buo! and yeah, masaya ako. coz wala naman akong ginawa sa'yo. i know who i am. DO NOT JUDGE ANYONE ESPECIALLY IF YOU HAVENT EVEN MET THE PERSON YET!"
OR

"someday someone's gonna love me, the way i wanted you to need me..." lalalala amp! when will that day come? hahaha

walang magawa. were finally done with thesis. sana wala nang mali. hehe tomorrow, mock defense na and come next week real defense na talaga. naku sana wala na talagang mali dun sa revisions namin. labo kasi ng mga profs! haha nanisi?!

sakit na ng mga paa ko shet!

pamatay na shoutout! haha bitterness.

"when i lost u,i was the one who loved u most. but between us,u lost more. coz someday i can love someone the way that i loved u. but u will never b loved again the way i did. C'MON! HAHA"

SOMEDAY by nina (love it!)

Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see this though my eyes
By then I won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared
I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the best guy on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someones gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
Someday someday

Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

thesis once again! shet talaga. nakakawalang gana. just when you thought its all ok, then saka mo lang malalaman hindi pala! ano ba naman! im stressed. hehe still smiling :)

anyway, got a new do. i mean, hair do. its kinda new. i haven't had my hair done like this before. but wala pa namang nanlait. haha

ayun, later we'll be having a meeting with the PHM officers. hay! tapos, its my nephew's birthday today! yehey! at jollibee pa! ahaha super kiddo party. HAPPY BIRTHDAY COCO!

so eto na lang muna. haha wala naman magbabasa eh. baboo!